I want to ask my doc for a med that will just make me not feel any emotion and another that will make me sleep all day and night..I want to be alive but asleep until the day I die..I hate this bipolar.. I hate that I was born like this..I hate that I can't get better like other ppl do..why won't it stop? No matter how good I am it won't stop..y can't these drs figure out how to fix it..its not fair..I hate me..