I think maybe just try to be at peace that whatever they decide is what is meant to be. You haven't waited this many hours for nothing; you've been waiting so that the right person will be able to help you and if they feel you need to be IP then please try to just trust that this is the right thing and that you've done everything you can. If it is IOP that's GREAT but if IOP isn't going to help until you've been IP then IP is a good thing.

Honestly the only time I went into IP only depressed (b/c I had to come off my AD to go on my MAOI and so I actually had a clear-cut experience that wasn't mixed as usual) I didn't want to be there but spent most of the first day crying because it was such a relief to FINALLY not have to hold it together. That's hardly the reaction I expected but that depressed it felt so good to just be able to curl up and let someone else do everything.

I can't believe you are still waiting. Do they see people in order or do they triage so that you get stuck waiting for emergency after emergency? Is it at least comfortable to wait in?