I'm sorry that you're in such a dark place that you don't even feel like you are getting the support that you want right now
I think you're pretty much going to get the same standard responses here.
We are members, just like you, and we respond out of our own free will, because we are a community who are here to help one another.
If I feel that I can offer something of value, or I have personal experience with a medication that is being asked after or whatever, I will respond.
I'm sorry if you've made posts in the past that I might have read and thought that a response could do more harm than good if I really do not know the answer, so I've refrained from responding.
My silence was not me being dismissive of your feelings.
I know that you're in pain