So...I just ****ing waited 5 hours to be told IOP is full, they don't have any suggestions, and call my pdoc. I fudged my answer and said specifically that I had suicidal thoughts without intent because I specifically wanted IOP. I told my pdoc I did have intent and he gave me his phone number and tried to set me up with an IOP. Now what the **** am I supposed to do? He told me he would try a certain place but, wait , oh never mind it is for the severely mentally ill. What? Just because I am a pretty piece of flesh I'm not severely mentally ill. ****ing old men and their ****ing stereotypes. Oh, she's dressed nicely. She's a cute little red head. She could never be crazy. Sorry...I'm just pissed if you can't tell. And, please don't think me conceited because I was only venting. UGH !

On a positive note, toward the end of my scary waiting room visit a man, who was obviously out of his mind manic came up and asked me what I was there for and I told him and he said "finally someone normal," ha! His positive energy bounced off of mine and he actually had me truly smiling... Even if it was at his extremely elaborate tales.