Was it also your idea that inpatient made you worse? What does he mean by worse? Not to be pushy, but usually docs don't stay on the ward to observe you themselves but rely on inpatient aids and techs to report what they think. You don't have to agree and your view certainly should count when you see T today. Some patients would fear having to be at inpatient but some would fear having to leave, so I'm not sure why you're afraid of what T will say. He's supposed to be supporting and helping you not be afraid, and supposed to explain things and be sympathetic. At any rate there are stiff limits on how much a therapist can make you do anything at all you don't want to, unless brow-beating works.