Hi Kaylord. It sounds like you have had a lot of hard stuff to deal with. Anniversaries of the passing of a loved one is hard. It was hard for me when I lost my mom, and she was old and sickly when she passed away. It was her time. But still you miss that person you knew would always love you no matter what.

Depression is a B*****. I agree. I hope you can find some counseling or something helpful.