I agree with Peanut, thoughts are not action.

I am not equipped or experienced to help with suicide thoughts, this is only from my own life experiences.

The responsibility of having my child and raising her to the best of my ability has kept me on the straight and narrow and I am eternally grateful for that. Ultimately only we can decide where our lives will go. Many times I have reached a cross road and had to decide which way to go. If not for my child I might have made different choices. You have to find a reason for living, be it hope, your children, study etc. I have found I do not want to deny myself the pleasure and love of my child. The future has not been written, only we can do this if we agree to partake in life!