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Originally Posted by ruh roh
Others can answer more about CBT, but I would again say that you don't really need to change anything about yourself; it's the situation you're living in that's the problem. If posting on a forum at night helps relieve some of your stress/pressure, then keep doing that.
I'm surprised that the only recommendation was faith-based therapy. I wish you could live with an emotionally stable relative. Is there any chance of that? Putting you on medication without changing the environment is like sending someone back into war with numbing drugs. It doesn't really make things better.
Also, do you think there's a chance someone could convince your mother that therapy would help with your physical health? It might take someone telling her it would be considered neglect to keep you from getting help. You need a good advocate. I wonder if a crisis line could help you figure this out?
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I really hope that you don't take this the wrong way, but I think that either I or you have a misunderstanding. Actually I think it is me. I think the big issue is that she does not
understand that when she complains, or dosent talk to me, something in MY mind tells me "She dosent love you any more". She dosent understand that very little things can set me off, and for no reason I am worrying about everything. Most of my relatives are dead, I have two uncles going through a divorce on my fathers side, and one uncle who is in and out of the hospital because of kidney failure on my mothers side. My grandfather is ill and my grandmother is fine on my dads side, while my mother's are both dead.
What I really need is some way to cope with the the stress from school, and life. I need some way that I can stop the constant worry. I know that she wants the best for me, but sometimes walking on a floor of broken glass, and stepping on one of the shards hurts. I need some way to tell myself that people aren't judging me. I need some way to tell myself that I like myself as I am. The problem with me not getting help does not lie with her, but instead me. Last time I asked, she became angry with me, most likely because she dosent know how to help. Because of this, I told my father recently that I still want to go.nhe said that she dosent think that I still want to go. It might be worth while having my dad talk to her.
I think I over exaggerated the problems that I have with her. Was really angry when I wrote that, as we just had faught. It's just that I feel as if her comments and care are not always genuine.
