Thanks for the information. Your situation sounds incredibly tough. You sound very intelligent and determined, so that is good.

Sometimes psychiatrists (or primary care doctors) prescribe non-psychiatric medications for psychiatric conditions. I especially thought of that when you mentioned your hands shaking when you play your violin. A lot of people take a type of blood pressure medication, one of the beta blockers, for anxiety. You don't have to take it every day, either, if you're taking it for anxiety. Public speaking and music performance are two of the big things people take it for. If you get a chance to see your primary care doctor soon or talk to them, you could ask about this. If you have a good primary care doctor, he or she can be a big advocate for you with your parents.