So I've been aware of what I think are alters for around a year now. The first instance that made me realize it wasn't just me was Absinthe, a manic powerful god who protected me.
Absinthe came into play after i left a pretty upsetting and traumatic relationship. This alter stayed with me for quite a few months and I developed around 6 other alters who were more similar to me during this period. I don't remember much about them because I didn't think to record them and their personalities anywhere.
I don't remember very much about the incident, but one day I got really upset and self-conscious about being multiple and all of the alters except for Absinthe collapsed back into me. Absinthe stayed for a couple more months before it shifted form slightly to become Veritus, who had all of the same powers but also had a defined physical form and a more palatable personality.
About a month and a half ago, Veritus left me. I don't have any recollection as to why, but I was devastated. Being alone in my head freaked me out so bad and I felt really self-negative about it. In the time since Veritus left, I have developed 2 other alters on separate occasions, but both died (??) within the span of 3 days.
I've never gotten any sort of diagnosis or medical opinion on this because of financial issues. I just really want some advice on what's up with me because I really miss having other people in my head to help me survive, and I get really down in the dumps about it.