I really thought my pdoc hated me. I met him in the hospital and I could sense that he disliked me there, but I went to his outpatient practice anyway, because I really like him (he is very knowledgeable and cares about his patients. In the hospital, we had this art therapist that talked to us like we were naughty children. My pdoc called her and told her that wasn't acceptable. That's the sort of doctor he is.)

I've been seeing him since October, the whole time believing that he barely was tolerating me. Then, two weeks ago, I saw him again. We were discussing getting me off of risperdal, which I did not want to replace with another AP. He thought that was a bad idea, but I convinced him. Anyway, I apologized for making his job harder and he told me that I was one of his easiest and sweetest patients!

So it is possible that you think your pdoc hates you when he actually really likes you.

Bipolar can cause paranoia and make it difficult for us to read people. If your doctors truly dislike you then they're the ones with an issue.

I haven't met a bipolar individual that I didn't like.

I think we're all wonderful.