rapid cycling...crying while making coffee, laughing to yourself while drinking it...ain't it swell.

Brings whole new meaning to the words "emotional rollercoaster"

I am the great concealer though and manage to stifle if someone else comes around. People ask me "what are you doing"...I look them straight in the eye and say "Nothing!!!"

It becomes a bit harder to lie when you have been committed to the Pysch ward for yelling at the community at the beach. (I am usually a fairly quiet person...pychcosis seems to bring out the loud in me. Now what was the question??? Shopping...yes with a vengence. If I have five dollars, I have plans for it.

Mania...now I LIKE Mania...If I could stay up for ever and have mania every moment...Heaven on Earth...perfect. Ideas, bing, bing, boom. But that slipping over the edge into other places...sort of sucks...that's when I can't stand other people and want to go an live in the woods by myself. Of course, it is at that stage that the RCMP come and get me and take me to the hospital. The RCMP always get their granny.

Now what was the question??? So the cure for me, just for me, not recommending for anyone else (since I have been bitten before for trying to be helpful) the cure for me is nine hundred mg of litium per day. Not 1200 like my pdoc keeps trying to prescribe...since he likes to over medicate. I need nine mg to function and I don't take the Risperadol that the pdoc likes to give me because it makes me shuffle pyshically and mentally.

Respirodol (sp)...I don't want to fall down the stairs in the middle of the night and break my leg. Let him take it if he thinks its so great. That stuff is a real mind boggler... in my opinion...just for me...It doesn't do anything for me.

So I am a bit different from most people...or almost all people. I always have been. I may shop more than some, I have bigger ideas than some...but I raised good children and I work at fitting into this community and I speak up when I see injustice. I look after myself and take my meds and try to make sure I sleep...because I do believe that If you don't take care of yourself...no one else will.

Now what was the question....drat, I lost track of the question again....Everyone have a great day...Mo