i have been having issues with eating for about four years now. it started after i had a major surgery that caused me not to regain my appetite for about two months after it, ever since then, i have been struggling with my weight and eating normally.

after i did regain my appetite after the surgery, i continued to not eat normally. all i would do was snack around and/or not eat at all for weeks at a time. it did make me feel better knowing i was losing the weight. i wouldnt excercise an extreme amount, but i did exercise.

since then, i have developed a hatred towards food and some times i even get physically sick at the thought of eating. i do get very self concious when i eat and sometimes want to punish myself for eating. what could it be?