I had my sesssion today and have been having a hard time with memories and triggers, depression and anxiety.

Now with terms of memories popping up this is what I know I can do to help myself get through this.

I have a choice now with how much emotional and mental energy I want to put into this (memories) I will have to put some in to keep myself in the present...That's energy well spent.( If I let it all go i could become stuck)

Remember I have a choice now...

All I have to ask myself when memories are resurfacing is:

Do I really want to do it? Let them continue like this?

Do I want to go there?

The answer is no I don't. I can no longer block the memories because in doing that they will keep coming back. But if I deal with them and cut them off at the source then i want be sucked back in.

I know that it's ok to have triggers, or memories, I can't forget them, nor would I want too <-- that's weird to say that...
But I am refusing to let it take a hold of me again.

I can and well deal with it when it happens, and I will come out on top.

Also I was told that I could move on to the next step and forgive.. so we'll see what happens during my next session.