this is a great topic/idea copperstar. i made a sui plan back when or i guess after i was so bad. it isn't really about when to go though more like what to do i guess or yeah.

i wasn't that into it. like others have said it changes all the time. i feel like i am prepared for the next time and then it kicks my *** again with some new kind of hell ****.

so yeah

a related question/issue i have is that i really need a middle option in between going to the hospital and having to do my whole life jobs and everything with no real break or support. i know that IP should be saved for when someone is in danger but i often feel like maybe i should go because i just can't function anymore. i don't know really what that answer is.

it seems weird to get a nanny so you can lie in bed all day and i don't want to out myself to family...

i don't know.