Welcome to the club!

It is all so complicated and confusing. I don't even know when my very first one was...
But after my big mixed that got me dxed I felt like my personality had been eviscerated. It was a very difficult. Very weird time. Abilify didn't help much. Made it much worse. I just felt like my brain was so fried out that it was like a burnt out house there was just nothing in it. Me everything unrecognizable and rough edged.

Ok I'm remembering why mania is so bad now