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Originally Posted by lunaticfringe
I think my manic episodes have really shaped who I am today. When I was younger I had many smaller manic episodes but it seems the older I get the more intense it gets. My last major manic episode was earth-shattering...in good ways and bad. But it has definitely changed me permanently. So yes, a switch got flicked.
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I have felt that way about some episodes, too. I've only ever had one therapist who seemed able to understand how something could be absolutely life-wrecking, horrifying and yet something I don't honestly regret at the same time. Some professionals thought maybe I was just very self-destructive, in denial or maybe even a weird flavor of masochistic. I only had one who was able to understand, at least in theory, that even though some episodes were very bad, in which very bad things did happen, I grew immensely as a person. And that I could never truly regret that.