I was screwed over and a document was written that intentionally labelled me as a sociopath and a faker of borderline in order to have me booted from the DBT program and for my therapist to quit working with me. I made some stupid voicemails in emotion mind but it was nowhere near bad enough to warrant termination.

I got back into dbt and assigned a new therapist and in emotion mind said I felt like I should file a lawsuit and get an ethics department to investigate everyone there. This is where my treatment became sour. My new therapist had initially included parts that I had said about my previous therapist in her session notes. Later on I got very upset because I requested to see the notes and those parts were missing. They also lost the voicemails on the day I requested to listen to them. The only voicemail they had left was one where I spoke highly of DBT and of the those involved. (I left this message prior to knowing all that was written about me)

Then I ordered all my mental health records just to get a copy of that one document that led to my mistreatment in hospital. I'd seen it twice. I recieved over 1000 pages and the document has been altered. New stuff has been added. Stuff has been erased.

I was handed copies of this document in a session with my psychiatrist. They almost let me have it but then they said no - that I was too dysregulated to have copies! This was after stringing me along for several months!

This is a very short version. They really have traumatized me. Badly. I screamed hysterically all morning because I left voicemails last night in emotion mind and they think DBT might not be helping me. Fair enough - but it's like they are playing dumb. This is not paranoia - this is all true.

They have written their notes in accordance to a possible lawsuit. No joke.

Now theyre making me out to be paranoid. Amazing the control these people have. And I'm literally too attached to leave but I know I should. It's the most stress I've ever been under.