Therapy went well today too. We talked about the book and how much it means to me. We also talked about how it gives conflicting msgs: I care about you, but don't contact me. My T said it's like she's doing the push/pull thing that people with BPD do, but to me.

My T thinks ex-T got lost. She got lost in all of my emotions. My T believs she didn't have enough experience with BPD and didn't realize it until when she terminated. She also believs that my T didn't have enough support to help her cope with all of the emotions. It's definitely an interesting take on the situation. But I told my T, even if her theory is correct, as her client and as a human being I deserved to be told the truth.

We also talk about my fear of being embarrassed and being judged which is why I have so much anxiety around people.

But overall, today has been a great day. I am super happy.