Everyone I know has a much wider range of interests and they're all ready to attend to every single one of those interests. I'm stuck in loving a few things that I don't even enjoy anymore. I'm just numb and nitpick every aspect of my life, while just wanting to be in bed and left alone completely.

I can't do anything anymore, I feel very tired, or just lazy to do something or commit to a task. For example, I actually have an exam tomorrow, and I haven't even studied yet, because I keep forgetting about it, and I'm finding it very hard to study in the first place because my mood isn't in its best shape. I used to enjoy going to the movie theatre, even if I was depressed, and I didn't care about what people will say, now I just don't want to do it and I'm more terrified by people than before.

My brain used to be active, and I remember it thinking non-stop and always coming up with things that no one would think of, now I'm just a robot, and I really feel stupid and helpless, I can't even write as good as I used to write before, and all of that is making me completely hopeless.

That's as far as I can write, because my mind really can't take it. I remember being able to say everything on my mind, and actually address the problem perfectly, now I can't do that, and I feel like I want to say a ton of things but I really can't.