If you know where you would go if you had to be admitted you might be able to see pictures online. They didn't have any up before my first admission, did before my 2nd and then they've taken them down (not like I don't remember but when I thought I was going I wanted a look). And the hospital near here that I won't go to has pictures up and looks really nice (I just want my dr involved and that means her hospital). The pictures were calming for me. My pdoc was also willing to tell me about it which depends on whether your pdoc spends time there and knows. Some of what she told me wasn't completely accurate and some of what she thought was good I didn't like but the basic information was good. She also happened to be in before my first admission and told the nurses about me; turned out I was a lot sicker than she really knew and so they were a little surprised but it did get me a private room (heaven).

I worried so much about what it would be like for years and then it just wasn't that bad.