I had the same thing happen after a manic episode in January. It turned my entire world upside down and back again. It all became real to me and some things started to make a lot more sense, but at the same time it was completely surreal. Still is surreal. It's very, very hard for me to pinpoint what I'd consider my baseline to be anymore. All the ups and downs still feel like me and are me, and yet they don't feel like me at all.

I hope you find some peace of mind soon.