I know this subject is perpetual here, but I need to vent.
I'm in middle of another (mixed) episode and I'm so tired of hiding my diagnosis from almost everybody. I make mistakes at work, I work so slowly. I got in a major word exchange with my mom because she requested me to be happy, but I feel so depressed. So it ended up that my husband told her that I'm ill, not spoiled and I can't help it. Still, she did not talk about that with me, no conversation on this subject.
Though I'm afraid of denial at work, I'm afraid of losing my job or getting another job if anybody finds out. It's a small town where I live and news travel fast.