@Nicky123, I don't really have problems with substance abuse, luckily, I only have a fear of pills (basically any kind of medicine) but that should disappear soon as I go on birth control..
Sorry to hear you got diagnosed late, but better late then never!

@Copperstar, medical care in the Netherlands is weird, but I'm trying to find something that fits into my insurance.. It's just that this whole therapy thing already has a bad reputation ("people who go to therapy are crazy") so I'm afraid to bring it out there...