Thank you bptoo. It seems I am having a few more good days than bad ones, so that is a plus. I think that I need to learn boundaries with my children. I talked to my daughter today and she was feeling depressed and crying. As a mother, I wanted to run over there and "fix" things for her, however I can not do that without the expense of my own health. It is hard to draw that line for me. I have started class again today and that brings on apprehesion about my abilities, why? I think I have such a low self-esteem, need to build it up, but how? I don't like my body, my feelings, my hair, my finances....hard to find anything I like about myself. I think before we can love, we must love ourselve, can't right now. What a cycle..............