Thanks pink and SecretGarden, too.

It ended up being a good session.... a quiet, intimate one

I asked if she was nervous about her surgery (yes) and then she asked about my illness and surgery experience. I was afraid I'd make her more nervous!

She will call when she's feeling better and we can see then about setting up a phone session; she just doesn't know how it's going to go and how she's going to be feeling. That was a little scary to hear because it sounds like it is not just a curative surgery but a diagnostic surgery, and she won't know what's what til it's over.

All week I thought of her. I wanted so much to hug her. I have wanted to hug her for a long time. But I analyzed my desire to ask and wondered if I was exploiting her illness and upcoming surgery to satisfy my own old and on-going deep longing for a hug.... But in the end I wanted to do it for her so I asked "Could I give you a hug?" Aaaack!!! Here comes the denial I've envisioned all week! Can I take it?!

She said "Sure!"



It was sooooo wonderful to be able to hug her, to be able to hug her and tell her I wished her the best and would miss her!

I'll never forget that hug!!