Some people were like that but they generally knew it was helpful we were coming.

I enjoyed it because it was usually a patient I could help and sometimes we made a big difference.

If you want to read about an admission written as it happened you can read my blog posts from my first admission. I thought that I had put this all neatly into a heading on my home page but I guess not; however if you go to the link and keep hitting next you'll go all the way through. The early entries are from my friend Julia who posted coherent versions of what I emailed her until I was able to post. The admission was for going on an MAOI (which means coming off any other ADs) so it was a little unusual in that it is not that suicidal and the one suicidal thing that happened that time isn't in the blog (they gave us paperclips accidentally and I had to toss mine into the heating vent because I wanted to use it in a dangerous manner). It's not quite as much about the experiences (groups, groups, groups) as it could be but it's what I was able to discuss from back then. The link to start is Master of Irony: Ready

and it is about 10 days long.