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Old Jun 25, 2015, 02:13 PM
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So, I had a bit of a mental breakdown last night! My anxiety is over the top! As mentioned, my psychiatrist added Lithium with my Lamictal (that I've been on for several years). With this new Bipolar diagnosis, she is weaning me off Cymbalta. I've gone from 120mg to 60mg over the last month. Here is the kicker, as soon as I get to the 60mg (twice trying now), I'm fine for a couple of days and whamo I'm in the middle of extreme panic and anxiety. I took my Xanax last night and it didn't touch it! I told my husband that I'm going to have to at least go back up to 70-75mg (I count the beads in the capsule) and he started going off that I have to get off the Cymbalta per my pdoc's orders and then he lost it over my Xanax! Saying everybody abuses it (he has my bottle and dispenses it to me) and he says he knows several ppl on it and they all abuse it! He made me feel so bad that I told him I would try to wean off it this month too if that would make him happier (I take .5 twice a day). He said no, that I need to quit obsessing over all my meds and do exactly what the doctor says. I just got up and went to bed crying. I'm so over all of this! I'm so scared about the new meds, weaning off old, and my upcoming court case! I'm overwhelmed and don't want to be here. If it wasn't for my great teenage son I wouldn't be! Sorry to be morbid!

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300mg Lamictal
1800mg Gabapentin
10mg Memantine (weaning off)
.6mg Clonidine (for sleep and anxiety)
40mg Propanol (for sleep)
3 mg Xanax
10mg Saphris
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