Thanks everybody for kind comments.

I'm doing better, I have to deal with this broken foot and it takes all my attention.

Yesterday, a mutual friend texted me that she met him and he's sad! I didn't reply back. I don't need to know what this unkind man is doing. he's sad because he can't abuse me??? Do I need to know really?

I'm hurt and I have bad moments but I'm doing good in general.
I know for fact that I don't want him like that for sure. And I know there won't be any miracle that he changes!

My main sorrow and concern is "If I find a true love? If I find the man of my dream? Would I ever have a family of my own? How can I find that man?"