In the first 9 months of therapy, I think it's pretty safe to say my T encouraged it. Very much so. She answered every email and text, she was quite physical with me (holding, providing a shoulder to cry on, prolonged hugs), she disclosed quite a bit, and she told me she loved me. That all came to a screeching halt and now, the touch is gone (except for a quick hug at the end,) she no longer holds me or gives she a shoulder, she leaves plenty of Emails unanswered, and she discloses very little. As far as taking the touch away, she said she didn't want to do it for too long, because it could promote dependency. I told her I wasn't dependent on it and she said "I know, that's why you don't need it!" I went from feeling extremely close to my T, having an excellent connection with her, to flying around in midair with nothing to grab onto. I've been trying to get that connection back, as has she, but I'm still having a hard time. I thought by disclosing things I've never told anyone, that would make it easier to find that connection again...and sometimes I feel more connected than others. She has been trying to help me get that connection back as well, but I have a hard time not knowing what's around the next corner. I'm so afraid she will add more boundaries without telling me she is. I need to trust her again. I WANT to trust her again. We work GREAT together...when we work!