I'm sorry guys I'm posting so much. I'm in a bad place right now.
Anyways Ive been having weekly crises (I define as crisis as when I come close to self-harming and if I don't do something I will cut). I'm not sure what to do about them though because...
1.Every once in a while I'll call a hotline, but I can tell you verbatim what is said and done.
2. Also I made a coping list with my old-T, but I'm often too distressed to do any of it.
3. I refuse to go back to therapy because I've been in therapy too long already
4. My pdoc would only be concerned about my meds if I talked to her.
My suicide risk is rising too. I feel like I'm in between a rock and a hard place.