I am so sorry you had to go through that. Are you getting any counseling? I am 54 years old and was sexually, physically, and mentally abused as a child. I have been in therapy several times over the years. I am now entering a 12 week program for people with PTSD. Are you now in foster care? Is therapy available? There are also groups for teenagers who have been abused. I encourage you to find something like this. You may have to check out several groups to find one you are comfortable with. I wish I could hug you and love you and tell you everything will be fine. You are worthy of love and God loves ALL of his children! Your parents will pay for what they did to you one way or another. Karma has a way of showing up when you least expect it! I want you to look in the mirror every day and tell yourself "I am a beautiful child of God and he wants me to have peace and happiness in my life". I have been on a long journey as I did not have any way to deal with what happened to me for many years. Back then it was something you just did not talk about. I am so blessed to have a wonderful therapist who is helping me now! These things will never completely leave your mind, but think of it like a cassette tape that you can keep taping over the bad with the good until the bad is hardly audible. You can do it!!!