I agree with Perna.

If you don't want to go and it's not useful, take a break—months or years if you need to. When you feel ready to make the most of therapy, try again with someone who respects your boundaries (not forcing you to read things, for example).

If for some reason you must be in therapy, maybe find something concrete to work on that interferes with your daily life--a specific fear or anxiety—and stick to that.