I, too, am able to hide it significantly well. Not unlike you, when my symptoms become extremely severe, I lose control. However, once, when terribly psychotic, I vacationed with my family. They thought my newly strong faith was bizarre and noted my behavior as bizare, but it was only in hindsight the depth of my illness was realized. Once they learned (or remembered ) my illness, it dawned on them how sick I had been during our vacation. Prior to my rediagnosis, apparently, they were ignorant.