I am not too sure if I do a decent job hiding my problems. I am constantly worried if other people in public can tell there is something off about me but I'm not sure if that's just my imagination. I'm the same as you, I always shower before my appts when I may not have showered or even gotten dressed for the few days beforehand. I always do my best to be as polite as I can be to people...but many times I end up being quite rude without really meaning to. I think people can tell something is off when a person is overly irritable or irritable for no reason. Sometimes I feel like even though I am trying hard to mask my...offness, I still give off a certain vibe like something is different about me. Having to "fake it" is one of the worst life experiences for me. I often avoid going into public for this reason and isolate myself. I am so glad I got SSDI because I no longer have to fake it at a job all day and it is just such a relief.