Well, I tried talking to my sister-- and it did not go well. She got really defensive and ended up getting angry with me. She was really sarcastic, rude, and unapologetic. I've decided that I just need to let go of all expectations when it comes to her and to stop trying to have a reciprocal relationship. She is perfectly functional in that she has a job, keeps up her apartment, shows up to evenT's on time, etc. She just lacks empathy. I mean, she's not a psychopath or anything, but she is just really stunted in her ability to connect to and empathize with others. She acts more like a child who has not yet learned that the world does not revolve around her. However, she is an adult and has no desire to begin learning those skills now. This is not just my perception of her; my dad has commented on this before and it is the reason her ex-boyfriend broke up with her. I don't intend on cutting off my relationship with her or anything; just recognizing that it will never be reciprocal.

I did see my therapist for our regular session on Tuesday. The session itself went really well. She was empathetic and made me feel cared about. At the end of session, she told me to her e-mail her about a specific thing (or just if I need to in general) and she told me she would give me the contact info for a group (queer women who have experienced sexual assault) just in case I'm interested. Well, I emailed T later that afternoon and she hasn't responded yet and it's been 2 days. I know that my T cares and I don't want to discount how great she was in session, but it does hurt my feelings that she didn't respond and she didn't follow up with that contact info. Normally, I wouldn't think it was a big deal if she took a couple of days to respond, but this week is especially hard and she knows that. I'm trying not to let my hurt feelings over the email color the session I had with her on Tuesday-- but I kind of can't help it. It makes me feel like she was just "doing her job" by being great in session, if she isn't following up with me afterwards like she said she would. It makes me feel like I'm not a priority, even during this difficult time.