hi Whitt!
i'm so happy to hear you've found a caring doctor who may be able to help you! that's wonderful!!!
i know it's so hard to trust doctors....most people really. but sometimes i guess we just have to reach out and hope!! sounds like that's what you're doing.
keep connected with this doc and keep posting here!
and i don't think you have to apologize for anything you've said. it's obvious you are going through a really difficult time. no one is overly polite when they feel rotten!!