It definitely doesn't make you a bad father, so it's good you're not believing that you're not. My parents had bad times too, when I was growing up, but they were still good parents, and I still loved them, like I'm sure your kids do. And once you're past the lies, the next time that the kids are with you, you guys can all have fun together. Don't beat yourself up about the last two weeks, cause that probably won't help...

I like the new signature :-) Or perhaps you could try an elastic rope?