Thanks. I don't hold out much hope for the doctor, she is kind but not been particularly helpful in the past. I don't know why I'm going except physically I'm unwell but if that changes I shall likely cancel the appointment.

Honestly I'm tired. I don't even know if I need a therapist or not. I wanted to get therapy over with and not pay out anymore. That might be the way I go, I think I give up on therapy and it feels like everyone around me doesn't think its much use to me either these days.

I spent the evening crying which is a step forward I guess, but I need to get OTC pills to help me sleep as living on 5 hours a night means I'm reaching my limit. Oh well. I might go on a drive tonight and 'run away' for a bit. I was trying to think who to contact or tell yesterday but there is no one else. Only way forward is to wait for the end of therapy report....maybe that will help me know what to do. But I doubt it.

It hurts, I went from someone to noone. Sometimes all I want is someone to talk to. But, life I guess.