Is depression anger turned inward? I mean,can it be caused by that? My counselor thinks thats where my depression comes from.. stuffing my anger for all of my life.

I can't feel any anger towards my abusers... for what they did to me..I feel nothing, really.Here I am a grown woman, 44 years old, unable to FEEL for the little girl I was who was taken advantage of.. whose innocence was stolen...

I am disabled with a chronic pain illness as well as chronic fatigue, both of which I believe stem from the years of abuse and the inability to allow the negative feelings for so many years. The thing is, I don't know how to have the negative feelings..

I do have depression.. sometimes I think its because I'm a type A personality who has become disabled early in life.. but I think I can understand how it might be more than that.Anway, I would appreciate your thoughts and advice.

Thanks for listening.. Sunybear