My first T ended pretty badly and it took me about 3-4 years of working with various T's before I started to move thru it. My current T has helped me a lot, and I've been with her now for about 5 years. I'll still sometimes wish I could contact old T, let her know where I'm at, and I'd really LOVE to understand why she ended with me. I certainly don't feel the anguish that I used to feel but there will always be a sadness about it for me.