Hello iamarunner, Yep,, I have felt that way a lot (not so much anymore thankfully) so I know how it feels. I wanted to be with friends but when with them I wanted to be on my own. My friends live far away too and sometimes I just didn't have the energy to meet them and sometimes even a phone call was hard work. But then I would wonder why I felt alone. Friends just stopped asking me to meet or go to outings or whatever because I said no or just didn't turn up. I did that so often I can now see why they stopped calling but felt a bit neglected at times. It's not easy. Hope you feel better soon.