Yes, sometimes I feel that way. My therapist works really hard with me and makes many suggestions about things that may help me in my healing. I recognize that many of the things she's tried and suggested that have worked for others have not been all that effective with me. So I feel like I require much more thought and effort than many of her other patients. Because of this, I do at times feel badly that I haven't made progress more quickly and easily. That's not to say that I haven't made progress because I definitely have. But I seem to progress at a very slow rate, and nothing for me seems to be an easy fix!

This past week, I felt like I didn't make the best use of therapy time and felt bad about it, but it wasn't anything I did on purpose. I just felt stressed out and kind of blocked. I could tell my t was trying different ways to get me to open up or focus on my feelings. I could see her making effort. But I just couldn't seem to get in touch with them, and I couldn't think of good answers to her questions.

Thankfully, it's rather rare for us to have a therapy like this (maybe only 1 time every 3 months or so), but whenever it happens, I do feel bad about it. I don't want my t to think I'm not trying hard enough, or that I don't want to be there. I noticed she stopped the session 5 minutes early too, which usually never happens. So I felt bad about that as well, wondering if she gave up because she saw that no work was going to get done this week.