Hi tangledupinblue,

I think I really understand how this stuff works and what to do about it now. Have a look at this and see if it makes sense to you as to what's happening in your head:

http://egg.bu.edu/~youssef/SNAP_CLUB...0164151576.pdf

and here's what I think is the best overall plan. Notice checking for purely medical or nutritional issues that may well be dragging you down without you knowing it.

http://forums.psychcentral.com/4262681-post105.html

I hope the times they are a-changin for you soon

- vital