I ended with T on Monday b/c I am moving across the country at the beginning of July.
The move is landing on a really crappy anniversary. I knew I needed more support before the move was finalized, but it didn't work out. T agreed to see me through last week b/c of the move (otherwise she would have referred me out back in May).
I'm between T's. I'll be returning to a former T after the move, but can't afford to see her for at least a month after I get back there. I'm done with this T. I can call her with an update after I've moved, but we are officially done.
Only I'm not functioning well right now. About all I can get to doing is small spurts of packing interrupted by long periods of crying.
I'm not sure where to turn. I can't call the T I just left. I don't feel right bugging the T I'm going back to. I suck on the phone with strangers (and I doubt I could really talk without crying and being totally unintelligable). I tried the chats but couldn't see the screen b/c I couldn't stop crying...
I don't know what to do... I feel totally stuck.
I wasn't able to process the move with T before we ended. I couldn't talk about the anniversary (which just seems to get more **** piled onto the day every year lately)...
What's the ettiquette on calling former T's clinic's crisis line? is that weird if I never called while I was seeing her (b/c it was easier to leave her a v.m. or chat online than to speak to a stranger)? I dunno why I'd be calling them, other than I feel a bit more comfortable talking to someone there b/c I'm at least familiar with the agency. I don't think they can actually help. It's not like there's anything anyone can do, but I'm really struggling with all this.
I'd much rather talk to someone I know, and who knows me, but that's not available right now.