Hi, how are you? I don't know what to say first, really. I don't know what are you supposed to write after you say "hi" at least, whether you go straight to the point or if you should just talk about how have you been doing during the week or what have you done today so far, so I guess I'll just start.
I don't like myself. It's not about how I look, I don't think I have ever cared about that a lot. I don't like the way I am. I don't like the fact that I'm nothing. I have nothing to give, because I'm nothing. I became shallow just so things wouldn't hurt. I'm not passionate about stuff and I don't remember if I ever was. Inside, I'm kind of lifeless.
I don't want to be this person anymore, but I don't think I feel the desire to change. I just know it's the right thing to do, without feeling it.
I used to want to go back to who I was before, but besides not remembering exactly how I was like, I also know that I probably wasn't a good person either, that in that moment I had to grow and change too. So I came to the conclussion that I should not go back, but to reinvent myself.
I would really appreciate it if someone could give me some advice on this. How to start, what to do, what not to do, etc. I would be grateful.
I have my doubts, though. Is this a good thing to do? I'm afraid of starting this process and realizing that I might be faking it all. That I will become a fake person. I don't want that. I want to be something, not to pretend being something. Will this thing work?
Beforehand, thank you. Hope you are all fine.

P.S: if the user misslabarinth gets to read this, thank you for being nice! I couldn't answer what you sent me because of a profile thing, but I hope we talk someday Take care too!