((( kindergirl )))

It is a long time to be away from someone you care about. You miss her. Missing her is a way of being connected with her until she comes back. Missing is a lot of things... sadness, loneliness, abandonment, .... Are you writing/journaling about how you're feeling during this time? It might be a time that, painful as it is, could be used to explore 'missing' as you experience it.

I wonder if breaks also inadvertently stimulate the 'bursting with information' too. Or, if the information is coming to you as part of your missing her and wanting to hold onto her.

You know I'm going through something similar right now. Yesterday was my last session before my T's break of a month or so, and I wasn't sure I wanted to go. She'd told me last week about the break and I think I was coping with it by mentally pushing her away. But I went and told her I thought she would forget me, or *want to* forget me during the break. She reassured me about that.

Do you think maybe you're angry at her about the break and wanting to punish her with thoughts of not returning? Remember you can and will have all kinds of thoughts, but they're just thoughts and don't have to be acted on.

((( kindergirl ))) 7 weeks is such a long time to be without her! I do think the bond does suffer but not irreparably and only temporarily as you discovered before. It's hard, but won't it feel good to be back 'there' again?

Nothing can replace T. It's a long wait for her to come back, but you can do it. You have us, sweetie!