hey. sorry the boundaries are more strict now. my T did something similar a few years ago with texting. he told me not to text him anymore. i got super mad and walked out. eventually we started texting again. i think maybe it is a similar case. T didnt want me to become too dependent on him. when it happened it really sucked. but i managed. but, yes it was hard. when things llike that get taken away it feels rejecting, to me at least. T said i was distressing him too much because i would text him all these really suicidal things. these days ive calmed down a lot. i am attached to my T as well and he knows. but i dont think its unhealthy. i admit, years ago, i did want him to rescue me and take care of me. but now... i feel more able to do that to myself, but not to say that i still need reassurance and support from T.

sounds like your T really does care about you. i know its hard to see it this way but i assume this is his way of showing that. it doesnt really seem right on the surface though. these are just my thoughts. i think you have a good T and from what i read you guys have a good rapport. this is very important. as far as regressing, i believe these things happen. recovery isnt linear, its up and down , forward and backward. so dont get hard on yourself for how you feel. im glad you managed it ok and didnt resort to self-destructive coping skills. i think that shows a lot of growth.