"I watched my mom by physically and verbally abused as well my whole life. I think in part the low self esteem comes not only from being verbally abused but also from not having good role models in the self esteem department. We never learned the tools or skills to feel good about ourselves because our mothers didnt have them either."

Agreed. Had to watch a lousy woman be abused by my dad all of my life plus she was verbally abused by her mom (not sure about her dad or any other relatives of hers). I don't want friends like my parents anymore had enough which is why I want a set of new healthy friends who don't act immature like the past ones I've had.

I didn't have any good role models. I have my brother and sister but we have a big age gap between us they didn't wanna be bothered hearing about the idiots well how was I suppose to deal with it? Yea, they already dealt with it but I needed someone to help me deal with it and I was left alone to fend for myself.