I don't know what to do anymore... I feel like I'll never be the person I was before. I feel like I'm just living day to day and I really don't know what the point is anymore. The relationships in my life aren't close anymore and I feel like my closest friend is trying to distance herself from me. I just got a part time job that I'm already dreading but I need the money. I have a college degree that hasn't done crap for me. I have a chronic illness that I have to start managing better, but have no hope to do so. I want to meet new people, but I want to be in a better place first. The depression and anxiety never goes away.. and I feel so alone. I used to be energetic and more social.. I had more hope for the future. Now I'm almost 30.. no career, still at home, no love life, distant friendships. I never pictured my life to be this way. I function best in a school environment, but I'm afraid of rejection. What can I do to make my life better..